[FANFICTION] EXPLODED PAST I

CHAPTER I

TANGLED MYSTERY OF US

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Cast: Oh Sehun, Park Hyejin, Cho Kyuhyun

Genre: Angst, Tragedy, Romance

NO YAOI. NO BL.

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Kaulah kecewa yang dulu kusebut surga

Kaulah hampa yang dulu kusebut nirwana

Kegelapan yang terlalu terlena

Kini kau datang membawa cahaya

Namun kau kutuk aku dengan bahagia

Tak apa

Asalkan luka yang dulu ada

Masih sempurna menganga

HYEJIN POV

Terasa ada yang meledak dalam diriku. Hatiku pecah berkeping-keping menjadi pecahan rasa yang sudah lama tak kukecap. Kekosongan beberapa menit lalu tiba-tiba saja terisi penuh, membuatku limbung dan ingin muntah, sekaligus menggosok mataku untuk memastikan ini bukanlah mimpi, bahwa dia memang ada di sana, sempurna dan utuh.

“Lama tak berjumpa,” sebuah kata standar untuk pertemuan antar teman lama. Bagiku, kalimat itu bukan hanya sapaan. Sapaan itu adalah sebuah awal baru untuk duniaku yang sebelumnya sekarat mencari cahaya. Kini, dia datang kembali.

“Benar,” sahutku tegas dan datar. Bertentangan dengan hatiku yang diguncang gempa dan digulung ombak tsunami.

Dia mengernyit bingung. Mungkin kaget karena keceriaan itu tidak dia temukan lagi. “Kau berubah.”

“Benarkah? Maka itu kemajuan yang bagus, bukan?” tanpa bisa dicegah, aku tersenyum. Bukan senyum yang dulu biasa kubagi dengannya. Senyum ini dingin. Bisa kulihat betapa mata itu terkejut dengan diriku yang baru. Tahukah kau, kepergianmulah yang membuatku seperti ini?

Dia mengernyit semakin dalam dan mengambil kursi di depanku. Tanganku mengepal. Berusaha tidak menghamburkan diri ke dalam pelukannya dan menanyakan ratusan alasan mengapa dia pergi. Tidak, aku tidak akan melakukannya. Sikap dinginnya meninggalkanku cukup menjelaskan semuanya. Dia tidak pernah peduli padaku. Aku hanya orang lain yang kebetulan lewat di hidup sempurnanya sebagai idola. Tidak ada yang pantas diingat mengenai diriku. Kecuali satu fakta itu, aku menyukainya. Dan dia tidak pernah tahu.

“Kau yakin sekali kursi itu tidak ada yang menduduki,” aku menatap langsung ke dalam matanya.

Dia memalingkan wajahnya. Entah karena tatapanku yang bisa melumatnya atau senyum sinisku yang menyakitinya.

“Aku sudah melihatmu sejak 1 jam yang lalu. Dan tidak ada seorangpun yang menemanimu. Jika ternyata ada seseorang yang seharusnyaduduk di sini, dia pasti terlambat,” jawabnya puas. Sialan, dia masih bisa membalik kata-kataku.

Aku diam. Ledakan perasaan itu masih berlangsung dalam diriku. Membuatku ingin menggapai kepingan rasa yang dulu bahagia. Membuatku ingin melempar diri ke masa lalu saat semuanya masih masuk akal. Saat aku masih menjadi diriku. Saat aku tak perlu memasang topeng untuk membohongi dunia tentang siapa aku sekarang.

Saat aku masih bisa mencintai layaknya cinta biasa.

“Kau berubah,” dia berkata sekali lagi. Aku ingin menjawab. Tapi dia kembali menyambung, “Yang ini bukan gayamu, apalagi sifatmu.”

Aku tersenyum tipis. Dia mungkin heran karena tak ada warna yang bisa dia temukan dalam diriku. Kemeja putih ketat yang menampakkan belahan dadaku dengan jelas, rompi hitam, dan rok lipit abu-abu yang hanya bisa diukur dengan sepotong jari dari selangkangan pasti membuatnya terkejut.

Inilah aku yang baru. Hitam, putih, abu-abu. Tak ada goresan warna. Sama seperti dunia tempatku hidup kini.

“Aku ingat dulu kau mengatakan tidak menyukai rok mini.”

“Semua orang berubah. Kau datang terlalu lama untuk melihatnya.”

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[HEART] UNSTAN EXO

OT12 Great title, huh?

Does it catch your attention?

Good, then. It is because right now I want to tell something new about me. Not really important of course. Who am I after all in your life?

But, it will be good if you stop by and read; maybe you will see something from many different perspectives.

Why do I keep barging you about different perspectives? Maybe you read my previous posts and I keep repeating it.

Do you know Sofie’s Verden, philosophical novel written by Jostein Gaarder? I read that novel when I was around 15 or 16—I don’t quite remember actually. One thing I really remember and has stucked in my head until now is about those who lived under the rabbit’s fur. Confused? Let me explain you. Those who lived in the rabbit’s fur tend to see from one perspective only. They only can look up to the sky and hope to jump out to see bigger view. But, they didn’t want to; the place where they lived right now is the safe zone. They are afraid to jump out and see the bigger view only to find out their expectation is no true. However, there are some people that jump out from the rabbit’s fur. Out of it, they become bigger and realize that the rabbit is so much smaller under their feet. They can look the rabbit completely. And even though it is true that their expectation didn’t fit the reality, they were relieved because at least they can see the bigger view.

It is the metaphor. Those who I call ‘they’ are us. We are who bounded in K-Pop world. We are who stuck in front of our laptop and scream our bias’s indefatigably. We are who spend our money to buy the merchandises and albums while we know can spend it for something else. We are who judge those who hate us for loving K-Pop.

Why don’t we leave? Why do we have stayed for so long? Why do feel being safe here? Even though there are many dramas in K-Pop, we still stay. Why?

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[NEWS/SCANDAL/REVIEW] What’s Wrong in Baekhyun and Taeyeon Dating Scandal?

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WARNING WARNING WARNING!

 

PLEASE BE CONSIDERATE WHILE READING MY ANALYSIS

 

DON’T BELIEVE IT FOR GRANTED

 

BE WISE

 

MY ANALYSIS IS NOT 100% TRUE

 

IF YOU HAVE BETTER ONES, SHARE IT.

 

IF YOU DON’T, DO NOT THROW FAIR JUDGEMENT SAYING THAT I AM DELULU FAN WHATSOEVER

 

READ THIS AS IF YOU ARE AN OUTSIDER

 

YOU ARE NOT EXOSTAN OR EVEN BAEKYEON SHIPPER

 

LOOK AT THIS ARTICLE FROM DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVES

 

Three days ago, my friend told me about this Baekhyun-Taeyeon dating photos. At first, I didn’t even give a single glance to that photo. “That hoax and bullshit thing,” is what I said to her.

But, then, SM Entertainment confimed it! BLAAAAAM!!! My world fell apart at that very moment.

I went straight home. And I felt nothing. I looked at EXO folder in my laptop and I cried. Just like that. It hurts, but I didn’t even know why I should feel that way. I like Taeyeon. I adore SNSD a lot. It means I should have not hated her. And it’s true; I don’t even feel that way. So, why should I cry?

It had happened for two days. I didn’t even look up for the news and even for the source or magazine that created the news.

But, then, yesterday.. I found out that the source of the news is Dispatch…

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For those who don’t know, Dispatch is the magazine that always created scandal with no logic and proofs. Maybe you could say that there is the photos but.. you need to look closer, guys. Dispatch is always failed in creating the scandal about SM Entertainment artists. Why? Maybe it is because SM Entertainment is the one who has the connection with Dispatch. And they want to Dispatch work fast and quick so that the scandal can be revealed as soon as possible. Can’t believe it?

Take a look at these surprisingly strange photos.

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[FANFICTION] Love In Pain

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LOVE IN PAIN

Meeting you was fate

 Becoming your friends was choice,

But falling in love with you was beyond my control

Author: rosanera

Main Casts: Kim Jongin & Song Eunhee

Other Casts: Krystal Jung, EXO Members, EXO’s manager

Genre: Romance & Angst

 

Aku memilih jatuh padamu.

Tanpa pegangan.

Tanpa penahan.

Tanpa dirimu yang akan menangkapku di bawah sana.

Aku tahu kau hanya mimpi.

Namun, aku tetap tak bisa melepas bayangmu yang selalu pergi dari pandangku.

Kau menghempaskanku berkali-kali.

Tapi, kenapa hati ini tak jua berhenti?

Aku tetap mencintaimu.

Meski itu berarti….

Aku harus terluka lagi

 

EUNHEE POV

Aku menghapus air mata dengan kasar. Mati-matian berusaha menahan butiran air brengsek ini turun kembali. Percuma, air mataku bertambah deras. Seiring dengan cepatnya kilasan gambar itu berputar di benakku. Seiring dengan luka hatiku yang bertambah besar. Seiring dengan kesadaran yang bertambah jelas, bahwa aku begitu bodoh untuk mempertahankannya.

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[HEART] DEAR EXO

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Dear EXO,

Wah, akhirnya kalian comeback juga ya, setelah sekian lama. Jadi inget deh, betapa gregetannya waktu dulu nungguin kalian bener-bener debut, setelah puluhan teaser itu (percaya atau ga, folder EXO teaser di laptop gue ukurannya 1 GB! Cuman teaser lo! Kebayang kan betapa ngenesnya gue nungguin 12 alien itu). Tahu ga, waktu nungguin satu persatu teaser kalian muncul, aku sama temen-temenku bolos  cuma buat donlot di warnet. Ga panter dibanggain, sih.. Maaf ya kalau kalian marah. Masalahnya kalian itu bikin gregetan tahuuuu.. Tiap teaser kalian itu bikin sport jantung, hipertensi, batuk-batuk, kejang-kejang, pingsan, gejala-gejala aneh deh pokoknya.

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[REVIEW] EXO, Power Connection and Symbol, Fantasy or Fact?

EXO creates history this April. With their debut Music Video entitled MAMA, we finished our waiting.

But, this music video is not only musici video as usual with single story. From December 23rd 2011, EXO begin to lit our curiosity. KAI’s teaser is the beginning. Then other members overtake the stage of this new boyband.

After they released MAMA lately, what are the teasers for are revealed.

SM Entertainment prepares EXO debut carefully and not as normal. From MAMA, we know that is actually the story line.

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[REVIEW] EXO – MAMA, Heroic Tale with Perfect Simulation

When the skies on the ground were born the legend, through there 12 forces created the tree of lives. That eye, the evil creation, covered the heart tree of lives. And the heart slowly grow dry.  With the return and increase of tree of lives, the legend divided by three in half and hide inside. Time is over turn. Space turns as stone. The trans forces into two and creates two suns, the legends travel apart to twelve worlds.

The legend shall now see the same sky land on different grounds. The shell stand on same grounds but see the different sky. Each legends have single power before one sky simulate as one world.

The legends will greet each other. Protect the green leaves of tree of lives being one perfect world.

 

That is the narration of MAMA music video, one more the way for EXO to enter the showbiz fame deeper and fight for K-PopErs heart. The story of music video itself is really amazing and so manificient. There is no much recently the setting used the gentle animation yet romantic but also make you WOW-ing your mouth. Amazing color mixed, the chants and melody hypnotized, we are really into the MAMA world. The megaton heart attack and gigantic avatar-alike scenes will be the main excess of this music video.

It’s not without reason. The beats, the melody, the harmony, not just the song with hard music only. It offers you the beats feel melody combine with harmony and rhythm of each members. Yoo Young Jin knows when to put the soft melody and how to shock us with hard beats. Instead of making us confused, it’s the power of this song.

Supported by their dynamic movement, this music video is really the most anticipated one this April.

We are not only watch music video, but also the high definition 3D animation movie. The twelve boys are the real stars for this tree of lifes legend.

They danced just like there’s no tomorrow. How awesome we see the anxious greets in showcase, they don’t show it up here. With dance, voice, setting, animation, and whatever they create, it covers every lacking.

EXO PLANET is the real outside planet of other world. It’s fairytale. It’s epic. It’s heroic. Yet really fascinating story.

Once, there was the tree of lifes. The leaves were green just like jade stone, the flower as red as blood, the woods were strong as stone.

One day, the evil power covered the heart of tree of lifes. The tree slowly has no more power to produce their life. But, just like its name, tree of lifes is stronger than the evil thought. Inside the dying woods, it creates the cell. Divided into ‘legend’ and ‘shell’. Twelve ‘legend’ and twelve ‘shell’ obtained. One ‘legend’ paired with one ‘shell’. The ‘legend’ is the human and the ‘shell’ is the power. They were spread in whole world and different place.

They have to find each other to create the tree of lifes again. Cast away the evil which make the balance of the world harmed. When they finished, the new world will open up….

KAI as the man who can travel easily from the power given by the tree.

D.O ruled the ground.

Su Ho cramed the water.

Baek Hyun lit the lights.

Chanyeol made the fire by his hand.

Se Hun control the wind.

TAO freeze the time.

Kris can fly and also control the fire.

Lay cured something weak and sick.

Xiumin made everything like the ice.

Chen governed the thunder.

Lu Han see something far away from him.

They will unite and create the new power, something which is never imagined before….

Written by Dyland @ Fairytale Beyond Reality

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